Newsflash: If a strong, independent female character falls in love, it does not automatically mean that she has lost her values or that she’s become less strong and independent, and does not necessarily change her story into an anti-feminist one. The idea that all women should fall in love and get married IS sexist, but a woman actually falling in love and getting married of her own free will is NOT sexist. Thank you and good day.
Chronic Illness & Anger
It’s hard not to be angry when you have a chronic illness.
You get mad at people for not understanding, you get mad when you run out of spoons, you get mad when you have to cancel plans at the last second, you get mad at the pain, you get mad at people you care about for complaining about a cold, you get mad when you see hospital bills… There’s so much that makes us mad.
But mostly, we get mad at ourselves.
We get mad at ourselves for not just being able to “suck it up,” for not being able to go out, for having our lives revolve around our health, for losing our identities in our illness, for feeling like a burden, for feeling like we’ll be forever alone, and for having bodies that just do not work no matter how hard we try.
It really fucking sucks to be stuck in a body that doesn’t work right- we don’t get a vacation from illness, we can’t just choose to get up and walk away from it.
It’s hard to find outlets for this anger, especially the things we think we shouldn’t be angry at- like our friends, our family, random strangers, and our bodies.
What are we supposed to do with all of this anger?
I’m getting now to the point with my pain where it’s like, well, okay we have a diagnosis I’m doing the treatment (wait for a paIN CLINIC) and it’s getting harder for me to be functional. I’m working 2 jobs right now (down from 3) and I plan on volunteering 1-2 days a month (because holy frak does my local Pride Centre need it), and as all this is happening I just feel completely pissed at people telling me I’m not doing enough to work away at my debt/work on my pain management/have an active social life while simultaneously telling me I need to slow my life down.
Those are opposite statements.
TUMBLR SAVIOURING DIVA CUP.
I AM DONE.